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[longwillows]

reach out?

the smell of fresh water in dry desert air. the feeling of cautious curiosity. a place as dangerous as it is resplendent.

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[longwillows]

[Though it wasn't empty bravado to proclaim that she was tough, it still hits her strangely to hear Ash say she's so strong when she's felt so incredibly weak since waking up in Manhattan. And never weaker than now, violently separated from all who loved her at home and everyone who's come to love her here.

She is so, so tired of having to find strength in solitude.

It feels almost shameful to need Ash's help again after the incident with the dream Vessels, but shame has never been a more powerful motivator than loneliness for Kalmiya, despite an upbringing that relied almost entirely upon it to keep everyone in line. So despite her hesitance, Ash can feel Kalmiya reaching back; even without the tether, even with the careful distance of Kalmiya's words, the longing as she reaches out is palpable.]

if you'd like to come by, i would appreciate the company
as long as it's not burdensome to you

[sculptedash]

[Ash has had time to watch and see how much Kalmiya has thrived making all of these connections. Seeing this she understands a little more how much Kalmiya needed them. How lonely the both of them were, and how they were handling it in very different ways.

It makes Ash feel a little terrible about pushing away as much as she did in the past, even though she felt she didn't deserve connections that made her happy.

She feels Kalmiya reach out and this time she let's down the walls and barriers that she had built up. Instead choosing to reach out and take hold instead.

There wasn't much distance between the two of them in apartment. Feeling the connection makes it easier for Ash to sink into the shadows near her, and then emerge from another set directly behind Kalmiya. Whether she's standing, sitting, or laying down, Ash will move to wrap her arms around Kalmiya's shoulders and waist. She'll lean in lightly and whisper into her ear.]

You are not a burden,
You are beautiful,
You are radiant,
Don't let her take that away from you.